indiana in late december

on a trip until the 31st. unsure of the plans for the time being.

been very dysphoric. unfortunate when i'm in a hotel with 

rednecks that stare. i do like being stared at, to an extent. that 

extent is broken at bar when i don't see a man in the mirror 

looking back at me.

being dysphoric means a benign feeling of anxiety that humbles

my ass throughout the day. i'll just shut up and let other people

do the talking so they don't have to hear my voice.