GOD LOVES FAGS

My queerness is such an integral part of my life and I don't think I realized this until I started publicly expressing myself as a queer man.

I envy the average gay man back in the mid-to-late 1900s because of how both secretive but so out everyone was. They were all trailblazing their movement for their personal freedoms and the fight for their rights. They had tight-knit connections that understood everything they loosely communicated to each-other. It was such a deep rooted community, and they all were so interconnected in ways I can't even begin to analyze without sending myself into a devastatingly long deep-dive into queer psychology and human study. But the way they networked and held relationships and friendships alike just makes me so eager to become a queer adult. It was all made for them, their society within a society. It held the movement together until some loser created the internet and then people felt the need to complain about something, so we got seperated and dished out to different audiences and have created groups within a culture that was supposed to be without disconnection..., or at least without blatant hate of one another.

The queer existence has been diluted. People are seeking heterosexual inclusion when our whole way of life has been to set an example of "difference in function, same in humanity". We have been backed into a corner, forced to set an example of getting across in ways suitable for standards. Lawmakers are keeping us under wraps by giving us only one way out, comply, hide, stay quiet and keep down -- or be set to eradicate. People are scared, and hell I understand it, but if they'd deeply connect with the history of the community and understood that infighting and twisting to fit the public eye doesn't do anything helpful for progress, we would be flipping shit upright quicker than you can speak a single low-brow insult towards the current president's appearance. 

Our rights are just the beginning. The fight for our rights does not end until all people realize that we are just as human as they are, no less or no more. They all think that we are asking for specified legislation to benefit us..., and in a way, we kind of are, but there's need for specifics because the constitution has so many neverending mother-fucking loopholes that its difficult to even begin working with the government to make everyone truly as equal as they say it was made to. It's baffling to me that anyone is even remotely angry about the idea of people falling in love differently than they did, or experiencing a different life than they have. It hurts to see how sad and restless people are just to wain a community out of existence. You begin to see a pattern, a mental issue that needs to be studied with more rancid discontent than the mental complexities of trans and queer people. Bigotry has sold itself to be something necessary to treat, to change, to bring into therapy and resolve, to run tests on and to complicate and look down upon. Not the queer experience. Not the differences of being gay vs being straight. The only thing necessary to eradicate is hatred.

We are a diverse collective of individuals with deep-rooted, cross-country & cross-culture connection. We are made to integrate. We were made to stick out, but also fit into the cracks, fill in the space that is occupied currently by bigots in red hats and white gowns that break lives into pieces and impose life-long struggle to countless groups of people trying to live and function like any other. We are supposed to work together and yet we're relentlessly attempting to consolidate for our past and it's unruliness. People are so eager to win over the other side because they feel they cannot beat it. But it's possible, and it's been done before, using the dedication that built itself up over the time we were knocked down time and time again.

I miss when I didn't worry, or feel the need to complicate my livelihood, but as time goes on I realize things will not change without heavy want for revolution . I am not the only one in the world who has felt helpless or scared, but I also will not bare to be the only one in the world who works as much as I can to change some bullshit imposed by an unfair example of democracy and compliance of sheep-states that follow to appease.

So fuck it, I will write, I will talk about my queerness, I will struggle. I will make everything about my difference, because a hell of a lot is. I will fight for this bullshit until I die, until I'm old enough to say I've fought hard enough. I'm motivated by my community and I want to interconnect and network like no other man could interconnect and network. I need it to be ageless and indiscriminate and unmindful. I need it to be as natural as it used to be.